Musing about Life as a WAHM
Just musing around here about the joys of being a work at home mom (WAHM). Let's see, on the bright side, I am wearing shorts, a tank top and fuzzy slippers while I type this. My kids are playing about 15 feet away from my office in the play area we have downstairs. They both have colds, and I didn't have to worry about daycare today, or staying home from a job because of sick children. I took a few minutes a little bit ago to wash the dishes and load the dishwasher, since I skipped doing them right after breakfast to get an order finished. I won't have to pay for lunch out or at the office, we'll probably make some Annie's Mac and Cheese and eat fresh cucumbers from the garden. I might take a few minutes after lunch and watch my soap opera that I haven't seen in weeks, All My Children. During nap today, I intend on doing a few layouts for clients with my un-interrupted computer time.
On the down side, even though it was a "holiday weekend" I was running embroidery machines and answering email. I was finishing up an order on Saturday night that took me until well after midnight, so that I could skip working Sunday and do things with my family. I worry about whether or not I'm doing a decent job of balancing my kids, my work, and my house, and alot of the time I know I'm failing all three. I'm not sure if my business will ever be a huge money maker, and I wonder sometimes if I haven't over-extended myself badly with all the different aspects of Flutterby Designs. My to-do list hasn't been "done" in over 6 months. I never, ever, ever get caught up, and there are many nights that I dream about work. During the time I have typed this, my kids have pulled nearly every toy they own out of the bookshelf and have made a gigantic mess, and have now moved on to the upstairs. They will wreak more havoc there if I don't get off the computer soon- there is only so much time I can work before they will demand my full attention.
Is it worth it? I want to say yes, I want to believe that my little contribution in the business world is making someone out there a little happier. I want to believe that my children are learning that moms (and women as a whole) can do whatever they want to, and aren't bound by the restrictions of our past. I want to believe that by choosing this option now, including all the goods and bads, that I am setting my family up for more freedom, more togetherness and more time in our future, but like most WAHM's I know, I'm not SURE of any of it.
As is so typical for my days, my musing is over. My 18 month old just came into the office fussing about lunch, and my 3.5 year old is calling upstairs because she can't reach a book on her top shelf. As my little man climbs up in my lap and I type while peering around him, I have to smile, just a bit. Is is worth it? What do YOU think?
Brenda
On the down side, even though it was a "holiday weekend" I was running embroidery machines and answering email. I was finishing up an order on Saturday night that took me until well after midnight, so that I could skip working Sunday and do things with my family. I worry about whether or not I'm doing a decent job of balancing my kids, my work, and my house, and alot of the time I know I'm failing all three. I'm not sure if my business will ever be a huge money maker, and I wonder sometimes if I haven't over-extended myself badly with all the different aspects of Flutterby Designs. My to-do list hasn't been "done" in over 6 months. I never, ever, ever get caught up, and there are many nights that I dream about work. During the time I have typed this, my kids have pulled nearly every toy they own out of the bookshelf and have made a gigantic mess, and have now moved on to the upstairs. They will wreak more havoc there if I don't get off the computer soon- there is only so much time I can work before they will demand my full attention.
Is it worth it? I want to say yes, I want to believe that my little contribution in the business world is making someone out there a little happier. I want to believe that my children are learning that moms (and women as a whole) can do whatever they want to, and aren't bound by the restrictions of our past. I want to believe that by choosing this option now, including all the goods and bads, that I am setting my family up for more freedom, more togetherness and more time in our future, but like most WAHM's I know, I'm not SURE of any of it.
As is so typical for my days, my musing is over. My 18 month old just came into the office fussing about lunch, and my 3.5 year old is calling upstairs because she can't reach a book on her top shelf. As my little man climbs up in my lap and I type while peering around him, I have to smile, just a bit. Is is worth it? What do YOU think?
Brenda
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